How pathetic am I that i'm jealous of a seven year old?

You have no idea what I would do to be her at that moment.

Or now as a matter of fact.

But I'm happy for her, to have someone she can talk to as great as you.

I know you'll take care of her.

Just like how you still check up on him, no matter how busy you are.

Sigh, what I would do to be in her position.

it's ridiculous how I'm working so hard.
I was questioning myself just now, like really why am I making yawls suffer NAO. when the exams are in a few months?
and then I realized, its because of you.
I watch you give 120% in everything you do and it makes me feel pathetic if I'm not doing something to the best of my ability.
it's almost as if I'm wasting my time.
but I know that because of what you said, I will push myself till my limit just like you do every single time


Do something as if it's your last chance to prove you're worthy.

I think my life is this huge slippery slope and as times passes by I feel almost as if it's collecting more problems and it mounts up into this gigantic ball.

WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LAIFUE.


anyway I liked the quote I wrote in literature on Tuesday:
"Maybe I believes the lies you tell because they're less painful than the truth. I will chant them till I finally believe the lies"

OH I CAN FINALLY BLOG.
honestly, i dont get my parents but whatever.
like first im not allowed to go for church because of my cough
and now you're like dragging me out of the the house to go to my cousin's birthday
because its important to "show face" -.-
I DONT GET MINDSETS.

ignore me, see if i care.
oh wait, I do.

hi, you matter to me.
I still love you.
okaythanksbye.


doesn't it suck when no matter what you say, you can't cheer a person up?

IM SIXTEEN IN A WEEK, GIVE ME A BREAK.


IM TIRED OF PRETENDING THAT EVERYTHING IS PERFECT AT HOME.
it's a house, I'm sorry but it's not a home.

it's not safe anymore,

my alternate reality has been broken into by those who aren't suppose to know about it.

it's not mine anymore.

i don't know how to continue without it.

oh gosh, talking to you after so long was fabulous.

i love how you love me no matter what.

cause that's what bffs do right?

and omg us constantly saying the same thing,

it make me giggle like the way we did when we saw a cute guy when we were together.

i love you (L)