DYING

okay i know harsh topic to blog on but whatever.
i want to talk about it (:
i think sometimes out journal topics for english are actually pretty cool so i wanna type about them here.
okay well, i know for a fact i wont actually know when im gonna die.
i know god has a plan for me and chosen how and when, where, why and blah.
so yeah. but havent you ever thought how you might die?
i always hope its like maybe in my sleep or something.
that way its not painful.
or like how mrs tay said the ancient people died.
their heads would get chopped off and you actually wouldnt feel pain cause your body is in such a state of shock.
pretty scary i personally think, but wouldnt it be cool to stare at yourself like JUST before your dying.
hmmmm or maybe you would want to die from like this terminal illness cause like then the doctors tell you roughly how long you have to live.
at least that way you get a chance to say goodbye to your loved ones right?
hmmm......what i wonder right, is that when i die, what am i going to be thinking?
yknow how they say that when you're about to die, you just somehow know and your entire life falshes before you?
i actually would like to experience that.
sometimes your most precious memories are forgotten.
and sometimes i wish i could remember more about my childhood.
i regret not living life to the fullest at some points.
and i know i can never have that time again.
and i know that all we can do is just make the best of it.
make sure when you have that flashback on fastforward mode, you're going to like everything you see.






tag replies:
limshan- yes totallyyyy (:
sarah - aiya, i cannot not talk about. she fills my thought everyday.
beatrice - june tan is a total weirdo :D






the rejection makes me ache inside and out.
its killing me slowly ounce by ounce.
i sit here in the harsh rain.
for someone to save me from the excruciationg pain.
save me.