Time is rank points.

Eight weeks left and I'm still in this horrible state like urgh. I HAVE GOT TO BE SMART ABOUT THIS. Study smart and not get distracted by all this unnecessary feelings of the heart and urgh. 

I think no one has any idea how much I hate myself. I hate myself so much it makes me sick and want to almost cut myself or purge because I don't like who I am or what I'm becoming and I just want to return to October of 2012 because I was just so so so happy at that point in time and right now I'm just like asdfghjkl. 

I hate every bit of me. And I don't think anything's going to be able to change.