I think that I'm finding it so important to write this post and make sure that I actually finish it this time (unlike my 2013 summary) because it really necessary for me to remember what I've learnt so far and be grateful for what I've gone through.
Thus, begins the summary of my first 6 months in 2014.
1. Work
I started work at PwC on the 6th of January and let me tell you, I will remember this date FOREVER. Why? It was the beginning of a journey that was something I'll probably never EVER experience again. The first two weeks, as always, sucked. I had no friends and I was still really uncomfortable with the environment. As being an individual who depends so heavily on the people around her for support, it was so important for me to find friends in this place I was gonna spend the next 5 to 6 months in. However, this did teach me to be much more independent and focus on the task at hand rather than trying so hard to find a group of friends and fit in. Which I am terribly grateful for, especially because University will expect a lot of independent learning/studying. Thankfully, I did manage to find a very very good group of 6 friends and some more who I may not hang out with that often. Honestly, without these people, I would not have been able to withstand 15 hour work days that made me want to sob my eye balls out from exhaustion and boredom. Pranks may have gotten out of hand at times but I really wouldn't have survived without these people. The pros of working at PwC was also that I got a chance to take a glimpse into what the corporate world was like. The hours, the people, the lifestyle. It made me come a very important conclusion: I do not want to end up working in the corporate world. HAHAHAHAHA. Ok, jokes aside, I genuinely don't want to end up in a corporate job. I am not made for that environment, I have learnt that what I need is flexibility and doing something that I love, that does not have a routine. Hopefully, this encourages me to actually work harder in university and kick all those gross habits I had in JC. i.e no sleeping in lectures, doodling in classes, not bother reading notes before hand and immediately revising after. (which reminds me, I've really got to draft up a list of things to do to prep.)
2. New York
This trip was a dream come true. Experiencing my favourite city in the world with two such close friends really was such an amazing adventure. From exploring sights to eating drool-worthy food to doing something as simple as walking around and exploring the city, I was so fortunate to be able to share the love this place and bask in it's awesomeness. Every day was filled with fun and laughter and so much simple love and happiness. I really couldn't have asked for a better way to spend time relaxing and just enjoying life before school started. It also gave me a lot of time to think and I guess grow as an individual and become more independent. Relying on yourself to get to an unfamiliar destination, to plan journeys, purchases and provide for yourself was really a learning experience. Having been babied all my life and have people to depend on every where I turned to, the trip was a chance for me to start realising what I need to start doing for myself and remind myself the importance of relying on yourself. As University has started, the trip really prepared me for the sort of independence I'd experience not just in the environment but in the classroom as well. I swear I have never felt so....free? unrestricted? I can't seem to find the right word. But this freedom has really made me so stressed out, I'm sorta glad I got to experience really not having people tell me what to do, even if it was for a short while.
3. Friends
I've been very fortunate to have many friends who have stuck by me and helped me so far this year. Be it those in a group or those who I'm fortunate to have intimate relationships with, they have really been there for me and been there in times of sadness, worry, stress, happiness, anger....you name it man. I really forget so many times, especially when I'm facing a situation where people seem to judge me for my outward appearance, that I have such a good support system that have my back all the time and love me for who I am. My animals, my animal farm, fall outs, resonators, Jo, Sarah, Shan...all these people have helped me whenever I needed it and have accepted me for who I am. I've been so worried about finding friends in Uni recently, worrying about who I'll hang out with, who I'll sit with in lectures, who will happy copy down notes when I'm sick etc. but honestly, who cares? Who cares if I can't find good groups of friends if I've already got so many people both on the inside and on the outside? And it definitely is a recurring pattern in the way I find my friends: I only get together with my TRULY close friends quite sometime after first meeting them and my impressions of them really change a whole lot. And what I've learnt from this is that even if it takes a while, if I am able to find such amazing friends in Uni that are HALF as good as what I've found in other places, well...then I guess I'm a really lucky girl.
I've been very fortunate to have many friends who have stuck by me and helped me so far this year. Be it those in a group or those who I'm fortunate to have intimate relationships with, they have really been there for me and been there in times of sadness, worry, stress, happiness, anger....you name it man. I really forget so many times, especially when I'm facing a situation where people seem to judge me for my outward appearance, that I have such a good support system that have my back all the time and love me for who I am. My animals, my animal farm, fall outs, resonators, Jo, Sarah, Shan...all these people have helped me whenever I needed it and have accepted me for who I am. I've been so worried about finding friends in Uni recently, worrying about who I'll hang out with, who I'll sit with in lectures, who will happy copy down notes when I'm sick etc. but honestly, who cares? Who cares if I can't find good groups of friends if I've already got so many people both on the inside and on the outside? And it definitely is a recurring pattern in the way I find my friends: I only get together with my TRULY close friends quite sometime after first meeting them and my impressions of them really change a whole lot. And what I've learnt from this is that even if it takes a while, if I am able to find such amazing friends in Uni that are HALF as good as what I've found in other places, well...then I guess I'm a really lucky girl.
4. Spiritual Walk
Now that school was over and a new year had begun, I decided to sign up to be a part of the welcoming and outreach community in church. Although it may be difficult for me at times because it's hard to commit so much time since my family can't spend time at church, but I really do think that it is worth it. The deadlines, the endless drafts I need to do, the write-ups; they're all important and I know that I'll be lucky I was involved in all this planning in the future when I know that I helped someone on their road to Christ. My spiritual journey has been a lot better recently, committing a lot more things to him and trusting him, though still slightly challenging at times, but I'm getting there. The Reasons for God series has also helped a lot in making me think much more about my life and duty as a Christian and helped me to become a better Christian. I've decided that action is much more important that words and I really do hope that my actions live up to those that God would be proud of. I was asked that day by monkey first, "What kind of persona do you want to portray in Uni?" and honestly? I want to be myself. I want to be moral and stay true to who I am, because it's so difficult trying to be someone else and living for something that is not very worth it. I'm praying that the regenerate bible study classes I'm signing up for will help too. hehehe.
Well I guess that's what the first 6-7 months have been like. School has officially started and I'm still trying to find my place. Nervous and stressed and a lil excited at the same time but I guess I'm trusting God in all of this. I still thank him every day for putting me in SA and I know that when I graduate from NUS, I'll be doing the same.
HERE IS TO A GOOD FOUR (hopefully) YEARS IN THIS NEW SCHOOL.
Now that school was over and a new year had begun, I decided to sign up to be a part of the welcoming and outreach community in church. Although it may be difficult for me at times because it's hard to commit so much time since my family can't spend time at church, but I really do think that it is worth it. The deadlines, the endless drafts I need to do, the write-ups; they're all important and I know that I'll be lucky I was involved in all this planning in the future when I know that I helped someone on their road to Christ. My spiritual journey has been a lot better recently, committing a lot more things to him and trusting him, though still slightly challenging at times, but I'm getting there. The Reasons for God series has also helped a lot in making me think much more about my life and duty as a Christian and helped me to become a better Christian. I've decided that action is much more important that words and I really do hope that my actions live up to those that God would be proud of. I was asked that day by monkey first, "What kind of persona do you want to portray in Uni?" and honestly? I want to be myself. I want to be moral and stay true to who I am, because it's so difficult trying to be someone else and living for something that is not very worth it. I'm praying that the regenerate bible study classes I'm signing up for will help too. hehehe.
Well I guess that's what the first 6-7 months have been like. School has officially started and I'm still trying to find my place. Nervous and stressed and a lil excited at the same time but I guess I'm trusting God in all of this. I still thank him every day for putting me in SA and I know that when I graduate from NUS, I'll be doing the same.
HERE IS TO A GOOD FOUR (hopefully) YEARS IN THIS NEW SCHOOL.
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