And so....

So... hmm. I guess I grew a little today. I took a big step in my big girl shoes and told myself that I was being more mature by being honest. 

I guess at this point all I'm going to be feeling is numb, but I'm sorta glad that I gathered up the courage to do what I had to do. Especially for someone so scared of rejection, this really took a lot of faith and convincing man. 

But I'm still glad I did it. I wore my big girl shoes and trusted in God's great plan for me and no matter what happens I'm still going to hold my head high and walk with faith and pride. 

As I wait for an answer, I don't know what I'm going to do but... sigh that we can think about eventually.