Old habits die hard.

I've been so scared these past few days about what is to come now that I've finally made up my mind and know what I want. The fear has gotten so bad that it's left me unable to sleep, think straight, eat properly and even keep my gag reflexes in check. lol. 

It just goes to show that I've gone back into that bad habit or relying too much on myself and not relying enough on those around me as well as God to get me through it all. 

I'm thankful for friends like Shan, XT and Ling, Sarah and Joanne who will gladly listen and be so happy to help me with everything. As well as a mother who would, although is in a completely different time zone, take the effort to call and check up on me to see if I'm okay. 

I didn't take up my laptop today because I was going to start off the day with doing readings and I saw this on my wall: 

I think I've really completely forgotten about relying on God and knowing that he has an amazing plan for me. That I can't do things by myself and as FREAKING SCARED as I am about the coming weeks, I got to remember to stop thinking I'm so strong and just let go and Let God. So blessed to have such strong and powerful hands lead me through all these trials.