When people ask me for advice, I seem to take a very... grown up perspective on things. I tell people to speak their minds and be rational and I think it's quite funny because I would have never done that like 4 months ago. I would have told people to just rationalise things in their head and not take action because I knew what it felt to be scared of consequences and what ifs. But ever since that day I took a step to confess my feelings, it seems like all I ever do is tell people to do the same. I'm not saying being honest is a bad thing but it's just odd that this is my take on things now. I always believed in preserving relationships and status quos by hiding the truth (not lying, there is a difference) about emotions and the real way I thought about something.
This could be a sign of maturity but I also feel like I care less? I care a lot less about what people think and I am beginning to get emotionally detached, maybe from being tired or lazy or whatever. On one hand, it's great not caring what others' think. I do what I want because I feel it's right and because I'm happy. On the other hand, it almost feels as if I'm no longer invested in the things I once cared about and that's making me sad. I don't know but I'm quite terrified that people are just getting the wrong message when I try and give them advice.
Hahaha oops caring about what people think. Aren't I contradicting myself? Hmm... I think in general I care a lot less about what society and people as a whole think. As for people I care about and important, those opinions still mean the world to me and I don't want them thinking I don't care. So for anyone who thinks I'm being an irritating git who seems like she couldn't care less, please let me know sigh haha.
Being able to step back and detach myself from a situation and compartmentalise is great and all but honestly, I never want to stop caring about what's important in this journey.
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