We cry out

And just as you pray and cry out and ask for a little bit more help, God truly provides and gives you reasons to want to live and be happy about :")

Easter started off sooooo well with the skit going perfect and everyone loving it. Sarah was there too to hear the message and she said it was good, so I was really really glad to be able to hear that. Post-service was really fun too with all the laughter and jokes and photo taking sessions.

Sadly, the moment I left church shit started to hit the fan and just go downhill. Coding took much longer than we expected. We completely understand why Joy and her team took 10 hours to recode, and I understand FULLY why she wanted to cry while doing it. I've never done something so tedious and frustrating in my life. I swear, this was harder than like freaking data analysis at OCBC + Math + a Mansfield Park essay. Like seriously, no joking here. I wanted to tear my head off and not to mention, my other group for PR was a complete nightmare. No one replied me till an hour plus AFTER we were supposed to go online and discuss the project. Not only that, but then although we gave each other AN ENTIRE WEEK to do our parts, people still couldn't even provide their end of the bargain. Like seriously? Does one not care about your grade? Also, does no one realise how burdensome rescheduling is???? LIKE COME ON MAN. I have other stuff planned as well leh, now I can't go for CF like I wanted to?? Then just as we gave up, I decided to go and eat dinner with Lye Yee and Justin who are the best caretakers in the world and seriously baby me so much, I don't think I can every thank them enough for their concern and love T_T Sadly, took really long to get there which got me even more frustrated and resulted in me crying twice while waiting for the damn bus...

Also, decided that I needed to remember that this wasn't an ordinary Sunday and that I needed to remember that even these few days as I struggle with the silence of the Lord, I must remember that silence does not equate absence. So said a quick prayer while walking from UCC to Utown.

Anyway, halfway through dinner and Justin makes this weird face as people start singing happy birthday, so I turn around AND BOOM. There appears the silly animals and even Jo on the laptop screen :') With like an awesome study kit with the cutest stationary EVER and like even nice healthy food to sustain me. Then just had nice catch up sessions and talked about silly things and played karaoke games and ahhhh it was just terribly lovely and I felt so much better and really felt the love of God radiating through these friends and flooding me. They took my mind off work and got me to have the chance to step back and calm down and I'm so grateful for that. Old truly is gold man. Not only that but God truly provides when you need him too, so ever thankful and in awe of Him.

May this week and the rest of semester allow me to grow stronger and not have this stupid old doubts.