siblings.

honestly, we fight almost everyday.

and i'm tired, please go on without me.

i've been feeling bad about it every second of the day,

most of the time when i can't fall asleep and the events of the day revisit me.

the guilt arises,

i've not been a good sister.

i don't think i've been there enough, it seems like we never "clicked"

we don't have that many thing in common, but today you broke my heart.

hearing you cry and tell me everything just shattered it there and then,

and with you not being with me i feel like a bad sister

because im not fulfilling my duty,

where was i when you needed me?

i was probably ignoring you for doing something stupid to me that pissed me off.

i'm sorry, that's sincerely all i have to say.

we fight, we scream, we cry.

it's a part of our relationship and i only hope that as you grow up that you meet friends who will treat you better and become as close to you as a sister would.

i hope that as both of us mature we build a better relationship,

a better bond.

will you forgive me for the past years?

i want to show you what it's really all about,

i want to be there to teach you.

even though you won't read this, i've told you before.

although you pushed it aside and told me to go away, im still here.

even if you've just hit me, i'll still come.

no matter what.

because i want to see you happy, no more tears.