she hid behind the pretty mask
not showing what was under
you walked to her and asked
can i remove it so i can see your pretty features

she shook her head
she turned away
not letting you see the beauty
that lay behind it

but what in fact lay behind that mask
was an ugly, old fart
she lied to you
and tricked you
into seeing whether you would love her
without seeing underneath that fake layer.

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wahlau so chimmmmmmm, hmmm would you really fall in love with someone
if you hadnt seen their face and only know what lies underneath a person's skin?

wastage

im not gonna worry about the little things anymore.
no stupid problems in my life.
life is too short to worry about these things.
im gonna work hard
be succesful
and if you dont want me a part of your life
tell me
dont hide behind lies
if you have moved on
please tell me
i dont wanna waste my time
but i still care about you
dont get me wrong
even though you may not be reading this
i hope you'll at least know that.
but i dont want to waste my life anymore!

babehhhhhh

i'm so bored that i changed my blogskin.
this one's nice (:
i finally finished e learning at like 5.30pm
it's pointless.
and since im still bored, im going to write another poem.
wow, 3 in 2 days.
do i have that much crap to write about?


i write about you
you laugh at the words
say honey that's cute
but its something i dont deserve

how i used to think it was because you were humble
now i know it was because of the guilt
the guilt you felt when you cheated
the guilt you felt when you lied
you felt it when you told me you loved me
when you looked me in the eyes

but not a word of truth came out of that twisted mouth
it was a bunch of strung up words so that i wouldnt pout
but you didnt bother telling me
you continued on with your unrealiable melody
pretending it were smooth and full of beauty
but not a note or lyric were true
it was a song of lies and hatred
it was a song just like you

so no more secrets
no more lies
im giving up
going home to my spiral notebook
to tear up the pages
about love
about hope
about destiny
cause i know where yours lies
together in the trash with my torn up pages

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wow that was damn emo, if you wonder why it cant rhyme its casue i got writer's block xD
oh and yeah this hasnt happened to me before. dont worry lol (:

blahblahblahblah

our eyes met
he smiled
i look down
as colour rushed to my cheeks
i smiled
as a little giggle escapes
he chuckles along
i look back up
he's still looking
with a grin on his face

he walks towards me
i arrange my thoughts
to not mess up what i might say
he whispers hello
and i reply
with the smallest hi

what's your name
he asks
its a secret
i giggle
okay, well then mine is too
he says

why do you need to know
i ask.
cause i like you
he reveals
he takes my hand
and when he does
it feels like there was a magic holding them together
and forever shall they stay there.

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Excusesssss

Have you ever heard that if you keep making excuses, the problem isnt going to be solved?
Push it aside and forget about it,
it'll come back eventually.
Just you wait, im gonna come and catch you one day where there's no excuses to make and no where to run to.
No more lies,
No more excuses.

E learning now,
its stoooooppid.
People like me are blogging and others are on msn.
I do not understand the point -.-
we are wasting our time here when we could be learning new things in school.
I need to buck up...
no more reading under the table,
no more doodling or journalling.
i must pay attention.

i need a big post-it to remind me.......

everything you're not.

Everything You're Not lyrics


I've been bruised and I've been broken
Can't believe that I put up with all this pain
I've been used and I was choking on the promise I would never fall again (umm)

I used to sing to your twisted symphony
The words that had me dropped inside your misery
But now I know the reason why I couldn't breathe

Cause all I want is everything you're not
So go ahead and slam the door
Cause you can't shut me out
No I don't
Don't care what you say
Cause all I really, all I really want is everything you're not
(never gonna break my heart again. Never gonna see my face again)
Everything you're not (never wanna feel this way again)

Your darkness was my weakness
But it turns out that it only went so deep. (Deep)
A meaningless diversion,
That is all that you ever meant to me (me, me, me)

And I am done with your twisted symphony
The words that had me sound like stolen poetry
I tore the pages and I can finally breathe
Cause all I want is everything you're not
So go ahead and slam the door cause you can't shut me out
No I don't
Don't care what you say
Cause all I really, all I really want is everything you're not
(never gonna break my heart again. Never gonna see my face again)

I want a gentleman who treats me like a queen
I need respect, I need love. Nothing in between.
I will not spell it out for you if you can see
Cause you're not worth it. You don't deserve it.
And now I'm gone (everything you're not, not, not)
Everything you're not (not, not)
One, Two,Three!

Cause all I want is everything you're not (thing you're not)
So go ahead and slam the door cause you can't shut me out (shut me out)
No I don't
Don't care what you say
All I really, all I really want is everything you're not

(Never gonna break my heart again. Never gonna see my face again. Never wanna feel this way again)
Oh Uh Oh Oh
(Never gonna break my heart again. Never gonna see my face again. Never wanna feel this way again)
Oh Uh Oh Oh
(Never gonna break my heart again. Never gonna see my face again. Never wanna feel this way again)

dont.

wow i havent blogged in ages, but decided to start again! that's if i got the time to.....
anyway, dont you hate it when someone ignores you?
you say hi, nothing.
you say ily, nothing.
you do everything to possibly get their attention, still nothing.
sounds like a whole pile of crap to me doesnt it?
and what happens if one person continues to persist and the other just doenst want to co-operate?
well, we got a big problem then dont we?
isnt a relationship about giving and taking?
and i mean friendships too.
it takes two hands to clap doesnt it?
whatever. i just dont understand.



i catch you making eye-contact with me.
i smile and wave.
you put your head down, pretending you saw nothing of that sort and continue with your friends.
i tilt my head wondering what's the matter,
i try again.
all you do is laugh louder
at the silly joke someone at your table said.
i ponder if it means something,
i ignore it and say to myself i'll try again later.
but later never comes.
because you are persistent in trying to not meet my eyes.
i come up to you and ask what's the matter,
you mumble nothing and continue on with your friends.
am i not needed anymore?
is that why?
or have you just found something better?

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