Frogs

I don't know what it is about frogs, but they make me happy. And I really love how my whatsapp background has two things I love: frogs and polka dots.

Cutest picture ever that Agi sent to me cause she knew I'd like it :) Hehe. Things like that, things where people just think of you makes me so grateful for the people I have in my life.

I got really upset after Math tutorial today. Idk why, I think it was a build up of all the frustration and upset from the last few weeks. Im really sick of people putting me down and basically just telling me that I'm stupid or that I can't do anything. And okay, whatever, I don't wanna whine and what not but let me make my case please. If you scold me for not paying attention and I try to ask you a question, but you tell me I'm ridiculous and stupid for doing so then what would you like me to do? Really. What? Im trying, I really am and Its pissing me off knowing that I can't find enough time for everything. If I sleep, works not done and I get shouted at. If I do work and not sleep, I'll get shouted at as well. So, umm yeah. Someone want to tell me what to do? I'm growing numb though, and I guess I'm quite glad about that. I'm not so sensitive when someone tells me that I'm idiotic or lazy or whatever other swear words that I don't want to type out.

But yeah, back to my point: I lost it after math and just started crying. And I'm quite proud that I haven't cried due to my own emotions in a very long time. (Crying because of a touching show does not count) Unfortunately, I still did end up losing it and I'm so thankful that I had Ayesha and Dianne there. And even when I left school I was able to call Shan and rant and cry to her. It's nice to know that they WILL be there and do whatever they can. I think I take too much shit for granted. Like yep, I really do. I used to tell myself when I was younger, that you HAVE to stop and appreciate the small things like the smell of cookies or the smile of a caring friend. I stopped doing that when time flew too fast for me to handle, but I'm gonna make a greater effort to look at polka dots and frogs and slow down to see what I have in front of me, not just look at it.