The "what would have been"

Today, I took a look at what had materialised on my phone. And what I saw was something that, at this time last year, would have made me so happy I would have teared because maybe, just maybe I was getting what I wanted. 

Today, I got to see a glimpse of the "what would have been" if things worked out the way I wanted them to be last year. It was what I had so dearly desired and was so desperate to have come true. 

But, weirdly enough, I'm glad I didn't experience the what would have been. I'm glad I've been through what I have. Instead, I'm happy about what we have now. Which I find extremely odd, because last year, I wouldn't have been contented in the slightest. 

I found out more today about how I'm really seen and I'm glad that I'm in this position now. I really am and I find myself smiling at being able to be experiencing this. 

I know this post doesn't make much sense, but I needed for the thoughts to just be put out there. Maybe only 2 or 3 people will actually understand this but I just want whoever reads this to know that I'm in a happy place despite all the other nonsense that may be going on. For once, I can say I am.