Dawson Tales

There are some days where I really really feel like giving up and I feel like I really should just take my A levels next year. I do joke about it sometimes but recently, I really think I do mean it when I say it. Because look at the results at what people are getting and look at that lump of shit in front of me. 

I wonder how I could have let myself get into this sort of position but then again, what's the point of pondering over something that's already past? I know that I've got to make full use of the next three months but damn.....does that seem short and impossible. People around me tell me different things and I just get even more confused - because what's an 18 year old supposed to do in this situation?

But I made a promise to myself and I must keep to that promise. That even if things turn out in a bad way next year, I'm gonna accept it, learn and move forward. I think that's what I forget to do a lot of the time, even with the past few batch of exams - I forget to learn from my mistakes. Trust God, Jesus is my study plan, what else do I need? 

26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?

28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith?