The journey.

This isn't the end and I have to stop thinking that it is. All of this, this isn't a test of results. I mean, okay yes, to a certain degree it is. But this is mainly to see how we cope with what we are given and what we make do with the situation we are in. All of us are facing different circumstances and what this is attempting to do is try and force us to adapt. The cards are dealt and we've all got a different hand. But there's still a probability to win. 

There is always a probability to win. 

And this horrible fixation of results and how other people will view me must be thrown out of the window because honestly, it is meaningless. What do I want to achieve at the end of this journey? Do I want to be depressed, stressed and falling sick every other day? Do I want to be happy and actually glad I went to JC? Or do I want to regret every single I spent not studying? I know that I'm sure about one thing, at least. And that's that I don't regret a single moment I spent at training, I don't regret walking around school with any of my maroon 8 friends or just laughing loudly in the caf with them. I don't regret being happy as I spent my last year in SA. 

And even if I do have to use my "second chance" card in life, I know that it's just for the best. Because no matter what, I'm learning something from the situation I'm in. So many people say that this will be one of the hardest times I'll face but I know that I'll get through it.