Dream girl? (Nightmare.)

The dream just keeps replaying over and over again in my head. How when I find out, my jaw drops and I feel my chest tighten with anxiety. My fists clench and my heart begins to fly. You make my stomach feel sick and I feel weak around you. 

Is it sad that the dream was basically one of my worst nightmares? And it just proves that I'm not focusing on school. 

What if dreams became true? What if I was a prophetic dreamer like Joseph? What is Jesus trying to tell me from all of this? Everytime I remember a dream, I think about why God would make me dream that. What am I supposed to take away from this? 

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It's just making me feel like I'm not good enough again. Stupid ESFJ personality that gets overly conscious about what people think. Sigh. 

And I know I'm being a bad friend, all the signs are there. You don't have to tell me to my face. I'm glad someone is at least there for the both of you.

WHY ARE YOU SO INSECURE AM. YOU ARE JESUS, HE LIVES IN YOU AND HE IS SO AWESOME AND MIGHTY. He is your wisdom and strength and your protector. Your ever present help in time of need. 

I swear I'm bipolar.