I still remember the last time I came to One FC. Watched Eddie Ng, watched Shinya Aoki. Thought about you. It was what... a week after my birthday? All I could think about was that letter. That letter that I never responded to. So many times I think about how we could be at where we were now even earlier if maybe I had just been smart enough to begin the messages.
But you liked her right? You did. I'm pretty sure you did. So I don't know what's going on right now, a part of me imagines everything. I remember in April, I imagined what it would be like if you were beside me and watching with me. I remembered how it would be nice to finally have someone beside me. But I guess a lot of things didn't happen happen, I didn't get what I want. Too bad I guess.
Just my luck right? It's always just my luck. I really spend so much time a day trying to figure out what on earth you're doing. But urgh. 20 days. 20 days left. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO. you should have done this earlier/later.
I still can't believe I've lost 4 kilos this week. Stupid stomach. What happened to you sia? I mean 4 kilos cause I was exercising and eating healthily? Sure. But because I've had a loss of appetite and bouts of nausea every time I smell food? No thanks. Last thing that I want. Well, at least I fit into my clothes better. You know what's sad? When the hungry feelings starts to becoming numbing and I don't mind it because I know what happens if I don't want to eat. Sigh, what on earth is wrong with me?
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Anyway, 1 minute and 46 seconds. That's how long our magician took to win Peter Davis by an arm bar. You're freaking magic I swear :') It was so so so cool being able to watch Eddie Ng win again for the third time in a row. Just my luck that when I finally get to go backstage the entire Evolve gym has left. Y I NO GET TO SEE YOU T________T hahaha. Oh well, some other time I guess.
But hmm... I was thinking about what I wanted to say to him as I was on the way to what I thought was going to be my chance to meet him. What first struck me was how great of an inspiration he is. These fighters, that come from such shitty backgrounds immerse themselves in training and dieting and crazy ass schedules to get what they want. It really drives me to want to be a better individual who's more willing to fight. I really really want to be able to fight this race and finish it well.
Thank you, Magician. You gave another hell of a performance I was proud to watch.
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