"When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters a table leg breaks or when a picture falls off the wall it makes a noise. But as for your heart when that breaks it s completely silent. You would think as it s so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world or even have some ... Read Moresort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell. But it s silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain. If there is a noise it s internal. It screams and no one can hear it but you. It screams so loud your ears ring and your head aches. It trashes around in your chest like a great white shark caught in the sea it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken. That s what it looks like and that s what it sounds like a trashing panicking trapped great big beast roaring like a prisoner to its own emotions. But that s the thing about love no one is untouchable."
And my heart aches. It aches for all the errors I've made and all the stresses I've created because how foolish can I be? Small mistakes they may be but mistakes all the same. I'm sorry for making you feel bad. I'm sorry that you always have to take the blame. I'm sorry that I always can't protect you from people who make us feel small and little and with no skills at all. I'm sorry that we can't fight against her. I'm sorry that we can't win. I'm sorry for letting you time and time again. I'm sorry for being the reason that we can't win. I'm sorry. I'm so so so sorry.
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