I don't need another being.

So yeah, Valetine's Day pretty much sucked until I went out at night because it seemed like I was surrounded by so much love that I just sorta yearned and ached for. I got into that pathetic state of "I need someone to make me happy." - which I really don't want and don't think I need. I think that's part of the immature part of me that is preventing me from getting to a genuine relationship. 

I want to stop needing someone to affect my mood. I should be in control of my own life and my own mood and doing what I want, rather than all this stupid nonsense where it seems like I can't live independently. 

I don't know if I'm making much sense because I'm damn tired at the moment but I was listening to "Dear No One" by Tori Kelly and I just really really loved the lyrics. 

But I’d love to have a soul mate

God will give him to me someday

& I know it’ll be worth the wait

So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you

But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone

Cause when the time is right

You’ll be here, but for now

Dear no one, this is your love song