Dawson Tales

So the results are finally out and I guess I'm okay now. Maybe a bit numb on the inside after crying for so long but I'm okay. It was funny how every time I hugged someone I cried even harder. Maybe it was because I felt like I let them down in a way? But yesterday made me realise how blessed I was. 

Blessed not in maybe achieving perfect scores that so many, sadly, think define who they are, but blessed in many other ways. I was blessed to have gotten what I did despite the huge ass struggle I had throughout my JC journey and not only that but blessed with so many people who comforted me and hugged me and said such kind and supportive words and those who couldn't physically be there but called or texted. And I guess I really saw what was important to me. 

I don't regret my J2 choices, maybe a few in the last month, but I don't regret what happened because it was one hell of a journey. And I'm so glad that I got to ride it with such special people that I hold so so so close. Especially my seven friends who know me so well and who support me and pray with me and for me. hahaha so proud of you guys! 

When I got my results, I felt like my 16 year old self crying once again after seeing that I couldn't get into AC. Crying so hard because I didn't get what I want. But truly, God had a much better plan than I could ever imagine in store for me. And I may end up in NTU Comms, I may not, I may end up in Timbuktu or idk maybe in the UK or maybe Korea, who knows? but it'll be part of that amazing and perfect plan that I'm sorta excited for now that I think more and more about it. 

It was hard to grasp onto that concept of the promise when I got back my results but after FINALLY rationalising with myself, I feel at peace again. Thank You for the promise.